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Date Posted: 10:54:53 06/12/02 Wed
Author: Katie
Subject: Stressed to my outer limits

I'm not having a good week. I've been able to keep my food intake where it should (up until this morning), but emotionally I'm a wreck.

I decided that this was "no crap week", as in I'm not taking any crap from my SO's stepson. Its getting very hot here, my baby is getting some molars and has been up several times each night, he also has a stuffy nose, and is a little cranky. We've started taking care of the yardwork around our house, so on top of all the dishes, laundry, internet auctions, babycare, full-time job, household bookkeeper, ad nauseum, I now have to make time to water the lawn and all of the flower beds every other day.

We have a really nice patio area that is completely fenced off, and has a "lawn area" next to it. The lawn there is completely weeds, so I told the boy to dig it all up and rake away all of the debris. 15 minutes later, he's in his room on the phone, 15 minutes after that, he's outside smoking a cigarette. When I asked him why he wasn't doing the chore I gave him, he told me that he was on a break. I told him that you don't get a break after only working 15 minutes, and he got angry at me, and broke the rake.

Fortunately my SO was home by then, so he dealt with the attitude. I went back in the house to finish cooking dinner. My SO comes back in the house after about an hour and tells me that the yard will be finished before boy will be allowed to come back in the house. Apparently, they had quite a discussion during which boy told my SO that he's worthless. My SO has raised this boy since he was 6 years old, working as a police officer for 15 years, going to school nights so that he could get promotions, so that his ex could be a stay-at-home mom, and after all these years, the boy tells him that he's worthless. I still feel like crying every time I think about it.

This morning, I woke up 1/2 an hour before my alarm went off, and discovered that my mom's wedding rings weren't on my finger. I freaked and woke up my SO. This must be true love. The poor man was going through all of the trash piece by piece at 5:30 a.m. to try to find my mom's rings. I finally got him to go back to bed at 6:00 a.m. and went to take a shower. I was getting dressed, and found the rings under my shoe next to the bed.

The donut witch came again this morning, and after all this, I just couldn't find it in myself to stay away. I did make myself walk 1/2 a mile at break, and I'm going to stay LC for the rest of the day. I've been trying to up my carbs to the 50 range (yesterday I had 70, and 35 fiber for a total ECC of 35), so maybe this will be okay.

I just don't know how much more stress I can handle right now. I've been missing my mom so badly since the end of April. I cry almost every day. My baby is sleeping 13 hours a night, so he goes to bed as soon as I pick him up from daycare and the only time that I get with him is 1/2 an hour in the morning (dressing him, and the drive to daycare) and 1/2 an hour at night (drive home, and changing him). I wish that I had some vacation time coming so that I could take a couple of extra days off.

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Katie -- Sherry, 19:05:35 06/12/02 Wed
((((Katie)))) I'm sorry you're so stressed sissy poo. Try to take it easy & know you are in my thoughts. =) (NT) -- Kel, 21:06:13 06/12/02 Wed
Re: Stressed to my outer limits -- Paula, 06:29:34 06/13/02 Thu