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Date Posted: 13:46:17 12/18/03 Thu
Author: Kay
Subject: I'm flattered. =^-^=
In reply to: Sushi 's message, "Well well..." on 09:40:50 12/18/03 Thu

Woot woot. I love debates, as long as I don't get anyone mad at me in the process. Not heated, if-I-lose-I've-lost-all-my-friends type of debates but friendly ones. Like this'un.
Or at least I hope it's friendly. I have one weakness that stabs me in the gut most often: the fear of making people mad at me. In real life I cringe away from loud, angry words and I get terrified when someone is so mad that they start shouting. Times like those send my skin crawling.
But, like Sushi, I am completely unlike myself over the internet than I am in real life. Over the internet I can tolerate arguments, even break them up with soothing words when in reality I'd be hiding in a closet somewhere.
IRL I'm shy, laid-back, and a homebody that would rather be sitting at her computer than at a concert of a band I really like. I let people do what they want, even if what I want is the opposite. When I was little I was afraid of getting in trouble- not because of the spankings I got, but because it would make someone mad at me.

But you who know me over the internet know the person I would love to be more than anything. I'd love to be able to get rid of the cloak of shyness that I've had all my life, to be able to be outgoing and unafraid of anything but glomping raw fish.

The above reasons are one reason why I've had crushes instead of real relationships with people. I've been afraid to get to know them, to be friendly with the guys that I get nervous just to be in the same room with them.
It may well also be the reason I've had more luck finding love over the internet than I have in real life.

So in some people's standards, I'm utterly and hopelessly confused and doomed to become an old maid that can only find love over the internet. Not like the fairy-tale ending in the movie You've Got Mail, but a wistful fantasyland that could never become reality.

But in others' viewpoints... I'm the luckiest girl in the world. Seemingly everywhere I go over the internet, be it MUDs, chatrooms, places like Furcadia, or wherever... it seems that love follows me everywhere I go.

Sometimes it's embarrasing. When I get the urge to go MUDding, I have what I call 'my muddy home'. I know virtually everyone there in that game and everyone knows me. I have good friends who are immortals and good friends who are demigods. And everywhere, everywhere, 80% of the guys that play there would do anything to get me to marry them on the mud.

It's embarrasing... and also a little frightening. O.O But fun. Oh, so fun. The shy IRL Kay would go insane there, but the calm, funny, and for some reason the guy-magnet Kay that plays that MUD also plays with the guys' minds. It's wierd.

My experiences with love are odd.

And this brings up another question. All this talk of internet love vs. irl love would probably rarely happen to people who don't have a computer, don't have an email address, and don't go online at all.
Does the prospect of finding true love over the internet only happen to computer nerds? Does that make me, you, and everyone else that reads this message a computer nerd or a geek?

That scares me.

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