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Date Posted: 13:13:53 08/05/03 Tue
Author: Betsy
Subject: Ramblin's

I had the oddest experience the other day. I thought at the time that I needed to share it here, but one thing after another happened, and now it's been a few days. I'll share anyway.

I had gotten into my car to go somewhere...don't remember where now, but it doesn't matter. It had been pouring for awhile, one of those hard downpours that start suddenly, wreck havock, then stop abruptly. There was still much moisture in the air, even if it wasn't plopping downward at the moment. The sky was that gun-metal grey it is right before and after a violent storm and the sun was in back of all the greyness, giving the whole world an eerie, surreal feel to it. I remember thinking that there had to be a rainbow somewhere. I could FEEL the rainbow, but I couldn't actually SEE it. The air was electric with color, but I couldn't find that rainbow anywhere. Then it occured to me, just washed over me like a strong powerful wave, that I was IN the rainbow. I was the END of the rainbow. I could feel the color pulsing through me and I had this strange sensation of being somewhat other than myself. Not sure that all this makes sense, but it was as if I was a part of a larger whole and my own individuality, although important at any other time, didn't exist at the moment.

It all happened in just a few seconds. Maybe a minute. But it was profound for me. Just wanted to share with you all.

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[> Betsy, I am breathless with the realization that you have posted here. Gorgeous! You ARE the rainbow! Your message also says to me that we can all stop looking outside ourselves for treasure because it is within us already. What a terrific hiding place! Right under our noses. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. In the same vein, a friend of mine once had an experience of realizing that we--our souls, who we truly are-- are more beautiful than 10,000 sunsets in the eyes of God. Imagine the thrill we get from seeing a fantastic sunrise or sunset, multiply that times 10,000 and we can hardly even conceptualize how beautiful we really are. Which is why we must forget all this when we are born, otherwise we would be frozen in awe-filled adoration and wouldn't even be able to play the game of life. Enlightenment is simply a remembering of who we truly are and that every creation on earth shares in that glory. -- Lissa, 14:08:12 08/05/03 Tue


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[> [> Gee, and all I was going to say is WOW!! That is truly amazing Betsy! Been thinking of you lately, how was camp? -- JeanClaire*, 17:29:51 08/05/03 Tue


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[> Soooooooooo very cool Betsy! I've had an experience where I kind of felt like what you're describing. Scared the hell outa me at first and it happened very quickly. Never really understood what it was or meant. I was on a mountain so after reading your description here, I figure it was me being part of the mountain like you said you were part of the rainbow. I felt part of the land, the little stream running through it and not human at all for several seconds. I feel that way when I am out west in my beloved mountains but it's never been as strong as that one time. How very lucky we are to be able to have these treasures that surface once in a great while like Lissa said. Lissa you put it into the words I could never understand or explain! -- Lori (wishing she were on a mountain in CO right now...), 19:38:13 08/05/03 Tue


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[> [> Well, here's some more... I was just reading an author's description of his book..."Setting Your Heart on Fire" by Raphael Cushnir. He explains that Love is a dynamic and primal force, the Universe's urge for union. Love connects. Love, as we experience it, is sublime and we do everything in our power to find it. But we think love has a certain face to it. We won't allow ourselves to feel love unless it looks like what we desire. We cut off love with our fears and judgements. He says that "Our need for love in one of these preconceived forms blinds us to its constant presence. In fact Love is here, always, regardless of our circumstances and dependent upon absolutely nothing. It is waiting for you--not in the form you may expect, or believe you need, but instead without form at all. It's an aspect of the Divine, permeating all of creation, and it never says 'no'." What I see Betsy and Lori as experiencing are versions of getting a quick glimpse of the Love that permeates all creation. -- How cool is that?!... Lissa, 23:25:59 08/05/03 Tue


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[> [> [> I'd like to also add that my now 10 year old baby used to come up to me when she was younger and tell me that she couldn't tell what was real. I would ask her what she meant by that, but her being so young, she really couldn't explain. IMHO I think she was able to see that this life, that we all think is so real, was what was NOT real. I have asked her if she still feels that sometimes, but she says that she stopped it because she didn't like it. It must have been very confusing for her, disorienting perhaps. I sure hope that she is able to reclaim that ability when she gets older and has a better grasp of things. She was the child who would just stand there looking at me when I would be in the midst of a mother melt-down-rant, just looking at me like I was an interesting bug or something. She wouldn't even flinch! Even as I would be ranting, part of my brain would then realize what an idiot I must look like. hahaha -- Lissa, 23:44:41 08/05/03 Tue


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[> [> [> [> When I was a kid I struggled with reality as well. I used to have dreams, also day dreams, where I could fly or transport myself into buildings with the power of my mind. It feels weird to get sucked through walls, I can tell, haha. I actually felt getting pressed through the molecules, it was only a slight resistance, giving in like cutting soft butter with a knife. Such a cool feeling! When I was "awake" I was very disappointed that it didnīt work in the real world. I was very convinced it is normal and should be working! I also couldnīt believe that the reflection of a mirror was "me". I felt so much different than what I looked like, although I had no idea what my real appearance was. All that got lost when I was through puberty. Too bad, because it went along with the feeling of total safety. Back then I KNEW nothing can ever happen to me, and I feared almost nothing. Only the dentist.*lol* -- Martina, 04:05:01 08/06/03 Wed


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[> [> [> [> [> I should add when I was a kid there was no such a thing as a science fiction movie, and I didnīt read that stuff either. So I donīt think it was overly active fantasizing, or "playing". It hit me out of the blue, and I did nothing to enforce those dreams. They just were. They were part of my personal reality. Later on, when I saw movies with people walking through walls I felt a deep loss, because I knew I once was able to do that too. How strange is that?*lol* -- Martina, 04:14:37 08/06/03 Wed


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[> [> [> [> [> [> That's very interesting Martina, even that you remember all that from your childhood. -- Maria A., 11:35:45 08/06/03 Wed


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[> [> [> [> [> [> [> I believe I remember all that because it felt so damn REAL, and NORMAL, and not at all like dreaming. It is like burned into my memory. -- Martina, 12:00:50 08/06/03 Wed


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[> [> [> [> [> Martina, wow, that is fascinating!!! Gosh I am sure enjoying reading all of the responses to this post! Tell me, have any of you ever lay down in bed and feel as if - it's hard to explain - as if you are leaving your body and taking off flying? And you get this deep sense of freedom and joy? Sometimes it just happens and rarely I can will it to happen. But it doesn't happen often enough because I just love that feeling. It's the most free feeling I've ever felt. And then I can feel myself return to my body so to speak and I try to resist and stay up there, but you know I never see myself above my body or anything. I just get the feeilng that I'm free, flying and swirling around and so happy inside. -- swvaLinda, 15:04:38 08/06/03 Wed


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[> [> [> [> [> [> Wow, Linda, you can do that??? It happened to me too, but each time, at the moment of leaving the body, I get so scared that I get sucked back in, heart pounding as hell! I donīt know why I resist that. And I donīt know what to do against the fear. You say it feels peaceful? It feels very exciting to me, way too exciting!*lol* -- Martina, 04:53:20 08/07/03 Thu


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[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Hi Martina! You know I've always sort of 'woken up' already out there, floating and yes, blissfully happy! And it's when I return to my body that I try to resist. And sometimes it will work to will myself to go back to floating/flying again. lol So I never in the beginning made the conscious choice to do it, therefore I didn't have any fear. I woke up into it already happy so it was nothing but pleasant. And it wakes me up at night when it happens, when I return I will lay there awake for a few minutes. I've never known what that was, if other people experienced it and I'm still not sure. -- Linda, 10:14:12 08/07/03 Thu


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[> Betsy, I must say WOW too! I love it when that happens! The shift of the way we normally feel, I mean. Getting in contact with that "somewhat other than myself" must be such a GREAT experience! Maybe you can try and remember this feeling and recall it if every day life seems to be hard again? Like an anchor or so. -- Martina, 03:57:34 08/06/03 Wed


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[> Betsy what a beautiful and profound experience to have! And thanks so much for sharing it with us. I really enjoyed reading about it and all the replies as well. Way cool!!! :) :) -- Linda in sw va, 15:09:24 08/06/03 Wed


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[> Wow, being able to feel or experience the real love of creation. That is too awesome for words. I've wished that I could summon it at will. Mostly when I'm feeling down and need a real dose of Creations Love. Does that make sense? There are times when I feel so completely happy and have a total inner peace inside that doesn't even seem real. It only lasts for a few moments like this other feeling when I'm in the mountains. I have to wonder whether that's part of the same thing. Sometimes it's when I'm feeling totally free, driving down a highway on a perfect day. Other times it can be as simple as a tiny flower growing out of a crack in concrete. It always gets down to the feelings of "awe", "wonderment" & total peace. -- Lori, 18:08:32 08/06/03 Wed


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[> I will have to remember that the next time my DD is upset she cant find the rainbow...we looked too, must have been the same day Bets.A gift to you from above! Wishing I could send you all a moment like this!! -- Jeannine, 02:24:01 08/08/03 Fri


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