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Date Posted: 21:55:50 02/28/03 Fri
Author: Raishawn - the ENIGMA of ELOHEIM I lead the pack!
Author Host/IP: ppp-67-37-76-234.dialup.sfldmi.ameritech.net / 67.37.76.234
Subject: God please forgive me .. DON'T LEAVE ME! I need your light to see.. I LOVE YOU, DON'T FORSAKE ME! Please walk with me and HOLD your IMAGE.

The worlds against me- Satan’s against me,
everything has changed in the blink of an eye the spies still watch and stand by judging my alibis with their emotionless pride
Suicide contempt, contemplated in relentlessness standing over bridges
With one footstep Left, Path’s been humble but Raishawns been fumbled
walking strange hearing death mumble things about how they’ll never change, my strain exist ageless- I was born Sick demented
with visions of the apocalypse, nightly visits by demonic images stalking My existence- Weary I talk to others about the turmoil
I set and gain, fencing with decisions intentions of cruel fangs biting down on my veins- thoughts of the only seed Planted and
how he left as quick as he came, I can’t blame self since self is still in stealth Mode illuminating thresholds of resistance, speech
IS forbidden alludes, cold winded Morns and frost bitten noon’s construed as reality to light-men Hu- to Eloheims right Hand,
I stand frail as cocker spaniels an alchemist to the tangles set-forth henceforth I’m trapped badly wounded- tomb ridden, a killer
with a child’s profound truth now Haunting- lingering like smoke from Black and Milds- proof taught, struggles of the lost It
hurts to talk out, yet my feelings leap out in conduction conjunctions of Godly beliefs Functioning as a defense mechanisms bearing
fruits that speak meek teaching to turn the other cheek yet I practice sin underneath this perfection bloody dreams in reconnaissance’s
recollection, collections condemned boarded up by principles- Don’t get lost- to loose direction is pitiful especially
when you were once agile With planted paths learning from the tribe of Cabañas clothing and noxious wrath
Toxic to entrails showers of hate mail in mental interiors vexed in spells of understanding
Confusion in trails- hallucinogenic caps in cerebral displays over-laps the pale and slim
Chances of the dim light depleting off into historic memoirs, angelic to departs- alas the
Hearts marked in death and ridicule that lengthens the depressive physical that is my dead
Carcass miniscule as air particles cycling around each molecule spirited from each individual
seeing as I see, darkness in humanity
righteously trod panes to plans over
Dead on aim targeted by the offset,
pathogens I surface from pain,
betwixt I sit under moon lit passages
asking god to pacify my awareness
set from over-statements alleviated
From my patience virtuous due to being a patient
in this make-shift of decadence
diligence misplaced at times,
over the blind I cast sight bitches
to lead, the women’s been what’s cost the flock
to mislead- without being at fault
yet it’s still possible to see!

“God loves me so much I can feel it, but Satan hates me more then God loves me.
He is responsible for all my shortcomings
my tribulations my inner hate my depression.
He sends me these wicked women
these whores these tramps these traps.
Jehovah is all-powerful I know this
I meditate on this and try to find hope in the realization. Yet Look at Satan
he has so much pull over me
it’s hard for me to guide my own steps.
I’m never me I’m always him,
this demon with a humans heart.
He throws snares at every step
laughing at my falls and slips.”

“I hate being this way
why was I chosen to know the truth?
I would have been better off
knowing nothing at all.
Yes Jehovah I’m grateful
for knowing you but
in turn look who comes along
with knowing you.
I can’t cope with this battle
that has little to do with us,
why not stand as the god you are
and trample your creation
instead of having him reign over us?
I know your helping me and guiding me
through all the turbulence I face in my life,
but as soon as the lights present
the darkness pulls me back.
It’s always been 1 step
Forward then 10 steps back,
why do I live if
I only feel regret and pain in my heart!”

“I’ve missed my death, know I have to move
forward, just watch over me
so my decision was not in vein,
show me that I do indeed have a
happy ending to look forward to.”

“Please God if you still hold me in high regards please hold me, and lift me up!”

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