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• I choke back each tear that bleeds... -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 6:42pm PST
  • She paused, hoping it was Luc but still glad that someone was here and she knew that Mia would be the first person Austin wanted to see. She bit her lip as she saw the girl, swallowing heavily - she had to say she admired the girl for volunteering to deal with this for the rest of their lives. "Mia..sweetie..." She let out a low breath, shaking her head, opening her arms to give the girl a hug. There was no telling when Luc would get the message but Jimmy had said that he would stay there until he saw him. "He...he was fine this morning - you saw him right? I mean, he was fine..." She let out a low breath, shaking her head, her brow furrowed. It never stop to amaze her how this disease could just lie dormant for months on end and then just flare up in a moments notice. It was like a traumatizing, painful version of hell on earth, this waiting game they were all forced to play. (NT) -- Jasmine, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 6:45pm PST

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• "Jas..." Inhaling sharply, she stepped thankfully into Jas' arms and gave her future mother-in-law a tight hug - as much for the other woman's comfort as for her own. Drawing back, she pushed both hands through her hair, and nodded firmly, brows deeply furrowed in concern. "Is he okay?" As 'okay' as he could possibly mean, she meant of course - the difference between okay and not okay with people with cancer was sick and sicker. "He was fine this morning..." She confirmed with a slow slight nod, fingers running reassuringly up and down the older woman's arms - this was hard on all fo them and it was because of how intensely they all loved that young man that they stuck through it all... (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 6:54pm PST

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• She let out a low breath and tried to clear her mind. "No...I don't know...I mean, he was pretty bad when we got here...." He had been near tears thanks to the pain in his head - but that was a common sign of the cells moving throughout his body and they had been through it before. "His head was hurting him..." She pursed her lips, clearing her throat yet again. "No one knows anything yet, I called Luc but no one seems to know where he is, I think you should call your 'rents cuz I know they would want to know about this..." (NT) -- Jasmine, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 7:02pm PST

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• "Yeah, yeah I'll call them right now..." She agreed with a quick nod and then ran her hands down her face as she inhaled deeply, fighting the sick knots of panic that were assaulting her stomach. "I should have made him come in sooner..." She spoke pretty much to herself - she had been so selfish. All the wedding plans had had her so distracted that she only thought to push him to go see the doctor every once in a while - not nearly enough to actually force him to call and make a sooner appointment. If she had only been paying more attention to him rather than herself, he could have been in here sooner - so much of this had to do with catching the disease before it rooted itself too firmly. One hand twisting into her hair, she shook her head in disbelief, jaw tightening and then relaxing before she spoke again. "My parents... I'm just going to call them." (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 7:16pm PST

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• She shook her head, letting out a low breath. "No, no one could have made him come in sooner if he didn't want to." She sighed, pushing the young girl lightly towards the phones. "Go on, call them" She urged her for a moment before she sank back down onto the floor, letting her head dropped into her hands. She didn't know how many more times she could do this without going crazy or breaking down somewhere. (NT) -- Jasmine, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 7:23pm PST

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• She could have though - she really believed she might have been able to influence him enough to get him to come in sooner, and nothing would convince her otherwise. Sighing, she nodded though and headed over to the phones without another word. Her fingers were trembling as she dialed the number to her daddy's cell. She hated this - it was just so unfair... (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 7:59pm PST

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• Jasmine just tried to calm herself down - occasionally looking towards the doors for her husband before she just leaned her head back and shut her eyes. She frowned as she saw the name on the caller ID of the cell, she stepped out from behind the bar and went to the hall - answering quickly. "Mia, it's Mom, whats going on?" She never called unless something was wrong. (NT) -- Jasmine/Jordy, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 8:10pm PST

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• I'd rather spend forever in your arms... -- Mia / Lucas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 9:09pm PST
  • "Of course." She didn't even hesitate, looking around to find one of the general managers before she cleared her throat. "Let me get someone to watch the bar, Let Jas know that its all ok cuz I know she will be worried about it too." She let out a soft breath. "Hold tight baby, I'll be there as soon as I can. I call your daddy too." She stated, not waiting to say goodbye before she hung up and went about arranging the bar's keep for the night. // At that moment she didn't care about the fighting that had been going on, or the tension, or the way she had felt like he just didn't understand her at all; right then, her husband was the only one who could help ease her fears. Her hands shifted to curl into his shirt, her forehead resting against his broad chest as she let out a low breath. (NT) -- Jordan/Jas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 9:17pm PST

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• "I will... Thanks mama..." She murmured quietly and then hung up as well, standing there by the phones for a long moment before heading slowly over to the pair. But she didn't want to disturb them, so she lowered herself slowly onto the edge of one of the chairs and dropped her gaze to her fingers linked together over her knees. All she wanted right now was her fiancé, and to know that he was alright. She didn't want him to be scared... // His hands soothed slowly up and down his wife's back before both arms just wrapped around her and his eyes slid shut, chin resting on top of her head. Nothing else but their son mattered at times like this, and they all knew it... (NT) -- Mia / Luc, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 9:25pm PST

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• She pulled back after a few moments, letting out a soft, shaky breath, shaking her head lightly as she lifted one hand to run through her hair. "I know something was wrong when we got there, he was complaining about how cold it was and he's never cold unless he's getting sick, even when he was little it could be middle of winter and he would run around in shorts and be fine." She offered Mia a small, shaky smile. "At home, from the time he could reach it, I would always catch him messing with the thermostat to change the temperature to like sixty just so he would feel a little cooler and could wear a hoodie and be comfortable. Buy warm clothes..." She let out another shaky breath, running her hand down her face as she tried so hard to keep it together. (NT) -- JAS, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 9:30pm PST

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• She smiled quietly at that and nodded a little, sighing softly, meeting Jas' eyes for a long moment before glancing down again. "He's still always turning down the thermostat or opening windows at my place..." Her voice was soft and she shifted to slouch back into the chair, both hands pushing slowly through her hair as she glanced down the hall where she knew he was - so close, yet so impossible for her to get to right now, when he was all she wanted. "I want to see him." She spoke to herself as much as to his parents - obviously they all wanted to see him... "My mama's on her way." (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 10:22pm PST

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• She nodded a bit, offering a slight smile before she sighed softly and shifted to entwine her fingers into Lucs, her head going to his shoulder. This was getting harder each time, like Mia, everytime she couldn't help but wonder if it was the last time - even though she hated thinking like that. She glanced up to her husband, who, up to this point, had been silent. She knew it was as hard on him as it was on her - they just handled things so differently. She bit her lip lightly as she nodded at a nurse who came out to tell them a doctor would be there with them shortly... (NT) -- Jas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 10:33pm PST

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• He just didn't know what to say anymore. 'It's going to be okay' or 'I'm sure he's fine' just didn't cut it now, and he didn't know how far from corrent those statements would be. Though he would have loved nothing more than to reassure little Mia and his beloved wife, he refused to give them, or himself, false hopes - it just made the truth hurt even more. Glancing down to Jas, he kissed her cheek softly and squeezed her fingers, then looked to Mariah. "I'm gonna call your daddy, honey..." As he left his wife, he smoothed a hand over the younger woman's hair and then headed to the phones - he knew that Cam would be at work by now, but would be anxious to be here with them all, so just wanted to call him and let him know he could just let Jimmy take care of closing and then come over.. (NT) -- Lucas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 10:39pm PST

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• She let out a soft breath, watching him go before she swallowed and sunk back into the chair, letting her eyes close for a long moment. She didn't know what else to do with herself but just close her eyes once more. Moments later Jordan came through, immediatly going to her daughter and tugging her into her arms tightly. "oh honey..." She murmured, brushing her hand down her hair as she let out a soft breath, her eyes sliding shut. She hated that her daughter had to go through all of this but couldn't help admiring her for sticking through it all... (NT) -- Jas/Jordy, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 10:45pm PST

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• "Mama..." Only then did tears sting her eyes - none fell or even welled, but her gaze did shine - as her arms wrapped tightly around her mother. Even if her and Austin weren't 'together', she knew she would have been here - she had been here every other time for their entire lives, but none of that made her feel any better. All she wanted was to see her baby. She didn't care how he looked or even if he was sleeping, she just wanted to be able to see him infront of her, to kiss his forehead, feel his breath on her cheek and the soft thud of his heart beneath her hand... (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 10:52pm PST

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• She let out a soft breath, pressing a kiss to her cheek before she took her hand and guided her to where Jas was, the three girls huddling together. Jordan hugged her best friend tightly, murmuring softly to her before she cleared her throat and drew back - the doctor coming out then. "Excuse me..." She had been Austin's doctors since he was seventeen years old. "As your all aware of i am sure, the cancer cells spread much more quickly then we anticipated, causing the break down in immunity that Austin had today." She cleared her throat lightly, tilting her head to the side. "We tried immediate radiation therapy and we'll see how that does. After the treatment he was sick for a good hour and we were slightly concerned because there was blood spotting so we sedated him as to not cause any further tearing." (NT) -- Jasmine/Nurse, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 10:59pm PST

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• ... (NT) -- ..., Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:24pm PST

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• She just dropped back down onto a chair and listened silently to the doctor - biting back her request to just see him because she knew that Jas would want to as well and she didn't want to 'step on his mother's toes'. Lower lip between her teeth, she glanced up as Lucas returned just in time to hear the doctor's spiel - his hands on Jas' shoulders, just gently squeezing. She wasn't going to cry because she had to be strong for Austin, and his parents, and her parents too - they loved him like family - but she had forgotten how hearing that word from the mouth of a doctor sounded. Closing her eyes lightly for a moment to regain her composure - suddenly feeling quite sick herself - she was taken so easily back to the first time... (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:25pm PST
  • They had had no idea that it would be something to serious... -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:26pm PST
    • What was she supposed to say? Her baby was hurting, and sick and fighting death yet again. How was she supposed to console anyone when she could hardly contain her own emotions. Her body sagged against her husbands, though she didn't turn to hide in his chest. Instead she just nodded, swallowing roughly before she cleared her throat. "So...what do we do now?" She questioned before she just listened as the doctor went into how they would keep him for a week or so to monitor how far along it was and if he was strong enough they would release him after a week and he would come back three times a week for treatment but if the disease had progressed to far he would have to stay there for an undetermined amount of time.... (NT) -- Jas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:32pm PST

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• His hands brushed slowly up and down his wife's arms as they listened to the doctor - how many times before had they heard the same thing? Too many. He was tired of so many 'if's, 'and's, and 'but's - all he wanted was something concrete to go by. They were supposed to be living in such a technologically advanced world these days, and yet no one could just make his son better. (NT) -- Lucas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:37pm PST

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• She nodded slightly before she pursed her lips. "Can we see him?" She questioned, at the doctors nod she started to step forward but then looked to Mia. With a sigh she stepped back, nodding towards the door by the doctor. "Go on, sweetie." (NT) -- Jas, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:44pm PST

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• Her brows furrowed gently at that and she shook her head a little. As badly as she wanted to be in there with him - more than anything - Jasmine was his mother and she couldn't take that away from her. "I'll go after..." She assured the older woman with a slight nod - plus she wanted to just be able to stay with him as long as they would let her. She didn't want to have to worry about hurrying out.. (NT) -- Mia, Sun, Nov 21 2004, 11:54pm PST

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• He was out cold for a long time, throughout his moms visit, his dads, cammy and jordan and actually through the first twenty five minutes of Mia's. He was so heavily medicated as to not let him pull anything or hurt himself in any way.... (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 5:54pm PST

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• She didn't care if he was sleeping. All that mattered was that she could touch him - her fingers gently laced through his pale'ish, cool hand - and be near him, could hear the steady inhalation and exhalation of his breathing and the comforting beep that followed his heartrate. It was just a relief to know that he was still there with her - he hadn't left her yet. Sitting on the edge of a chair, she rested her head - turned so she could gaze up at him - in the crook of her bent arm, and her free hand just rested tucked into one of his, thumb slowly brushing his palm, her eyes sliding lightly shut every once in while. It was clear that she had no intentions of leaving until someone forced her to... (NT) -- mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 6:34pm PST

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• It was a good half hour before his eyes moved beneath his lids and squeezed her hand gently, his eyes slowely fluttering open. He had known this was coming but he was so aggravated to have it come now. There was to much to do right now, with the wedding and the club and everything that was going on. It was just a horrible time. "Hey..." He offered a rueful smile, his voice raspy; a slight wince accompanying his words as he swallowed - His throat was torn and raw thanks to throwing up over and over. He let out a gentle sigh, biting his lip as he gazed at her. This is what he hated the most, seeing the pain and aching in her eyes.... (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 6:43pm PST

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• At his squeeze, her own eyes fluttered open, but she didn't sit up until he spoke, and then offered a small, loving smile. "Hey... Baby. Let me get you a drink..." She leaned down to press a soft kiss to his palm before reaching to the table next to the bed where there was some water - warm so as to soothe his throat - already waiting. Handing it over to him, she wordlessly just helped him out a little bit and then set the cup back down for him, then reached up to brush away a droplet from his chin before she finally spoke again, forcing herself to smile for his sake. "How're you feeling, love? -- Mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 6:51pm PST

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• He groaned quietly, shifting on the bed to get more comfortable - his back aching from laying so long. "Aggravated..." He grumbled, his brow furrowed. "Shitty timing..." He sighed softly, lifting one hand to run gently down her jaw. "So sorry, love..." He really felt horrible, they had so much to decide now on whether to move up the wedding it push it back or leave it alone....but he was just so damn tired that he couldn't even sit up on his own or take a drink of water without her help. This is just what he hadn't wanted - her having to take care of him over and over again. (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 6:58pm PST

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• "Baby..." She murmured softly and pulled her chair up closer to his head, frowning gently, reassuringly. "Don't even worry about it, Austin James. You can't help it. We knew that this could happen..." She didn't want him feeling guilty or blaming himself, and she didn't want him to start doubting marrying her - because she still, and would always, want that. A hand shifting to his chest to rub slowly, soothingly, gaze so soft and tender. "We'll figure this out, love - you know that." (NT) -- Mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 7:02pm PST

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• He nodded lightly, letting out a low breath before he sighed softly and tilted his head to the side to gaze at her more fully. "Did they say if they were going to let me out?" He questioned softly, his brow furrowed as he winced again - it felt like their were razor blades in his throat. "Throat hurts..." He murmured softly, his eyes slowly sliding shut. (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 7:27pm PST

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• Her brows furrorwed gently at that as she tried to recall the doctor's words - she hadn't been listening too well at that point, and definitely regretted it now. "Um, I think they said something about giving you a week and then seeing..." She hated the finality of his question though - not 'when am I getting out?' but 'am I getting out?". It terrified her. Sighing softly, she trailed one hand slowly down his jaw and leaned down to press a soft kiss to his cheek. "Don't talk... You don't have to say anything, love... It's alright." (NT) -- Mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 7:39pm PST

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• He sighed softly, letting out a low breath as he wrapped his fingers into hers, squeezing softly before he he spoke again. "My mama ok?" He questioned, she had to be freaking out - she saw him when he was having his breakdown. That couldn't have been easy for her and he hated worrying his mama almost as much as he hated worrying Mia. (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 8:00pm PST

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• She sighed softly, but then frowned gently again at that and squeezed his fingers in return. "She's okay... I should go get her.. She'll want to see you." Though she hated the idea of leaving him - really she didn't want to leave him for a single moment, but she knew that his mother would want to see him and she deserved that. "Should I go do that?" She was standing already, though her fingers were still linked into his and she leaned down to kiss his forehead softly. (NT) -- Mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 8:09pm PST

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• "Yeah...come back with them though..is my dad here?" He questioned, his brow furrowed gently. He knew his 'rents had been fighting a lot lately and if nothing else maybe his sickness could do some good by at least helping them set aside their difference. A yawn escaped his lips as he settled back onto the bed, He just wanted to sleep really but he wanted to reassure everyone that, yes, he was still breathing - first. (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 8:18pm PST

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• "They're only letting one to two visitors in at a time..." She informed him with a reassuring smile - the doctors wanted to make sure he got enough rest, it only made sense - and leaned down to kiss his forehead sweetly once more. "Your dad is here. My parents too.. I'll send yours in and I'll be right outside till they're done, and then be here when you wake up.." He didn't have to tell her that he needed a nap - she noticed and understood and just wanted him to get as much rest as he could. (NT) -- Mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 9:32pm PST

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• He sighed at that, nodding a bit as he smiled at her just briefly - it took to much energy. "Alright..." He sighed softly, clearing his throat lightly. "Love you..." He stated before he squeezed her fingers one last time and then let go, letting his hand drop to the bed and his eyes close for just a brief moment to gather some strength. (NT) -- Austin, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 9:35pm PST

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• Her fingers touched his cheek softly as she leaned down to press a long, warm kiss to his forehead, and then finally forced herself back from his bed, grabbing her jacket and crossing her arms beneath her chest. "I love you too, Austin... I'll see you in a bit." She promised him quietly, voice lowering just a little before she cleared her throat, and smiled reassuringly before finally, so reluctantly, slipping out... (NT) -- Mia, Mon, Nov 22 2004, 9:43pm PST