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Date Posted: 10:04:35 08/07/06 Mon
I havent been here in a LONG time. There are a few who may remember me. My friend Been There renamed us, for when I first came here over 3 yrs ago, I known as *BrokenSpirit* - and I truly was. I was 2 months pregnant with my only child when I began posting. But I freed myself and I only wanted to check in, and say hello, and give back to others. I have been on the other side for quite some time now.
The only thing I can say is, It will end, when you want it to end. I nearly turned myself inside out for my now Ex-husband. There was a few months that I thank god for this board, or I would have had a nervous break-down while I was pregnant. I just didnt understand, I could barely make it through the day. The people are wonderful, and the know their stuff. Unfortunatly, my user, continued using. And is a active user years later. Or rather should I correctly say, a "functional active user" -- but really nothing has changed. Except for me. I finally learned how to let go. And when you have had enough, it will Free you. When you separate your emotions, you find Life again.
My daughter is 2 1/2 years old now. Sometimes, its so hard to believe how time has flown. I dont come to the board, b/c I let that part of my Life. I dont wish to dispell anyone's hope, but for me, nothing short of death, has helped. Jail, divorce, children, etc... nothing made a diffrence. I have come to realize, my ex-husband will live a short life. It makes me sad sometimes. But they choose their path. I am in such a better place now. I can remember how i felt the life being sucked right out of me. How I made, I know was in part, to those here. Its slow death for the loved ones to watch their lives fall apart. And I liken it to death. You go through all of the emotions, as a person who has died. And truly, that is what has happened to the user in your life. They feel nothing, and if for that fleeting moment, a spark of life they show, it will be short-lived, until they seek recover, NOT ABSTINENCE. Big Diffrence. The ties that bind mean nothing.
Take care of yourselves and your children. They need a whole parent in their lives. You will survive, and live again. I should know, I did.
xoxo Laci and me
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