X!nk - It's just a known fact that no matter where you go, anywhere in the world...if you have a boy band, and any of the members are brothers, they're gonna be cute! Jonas Bros, Hanson Bros, Tokio Hotel Bros...you can't escape it! This Belgian band, X!nk, actually has TWO sets of brothers in it...and it looks like the formula proves itself yet again! Jonas, Niels, Philip, and Thomas...definitely a crew of boys to stare at dreamily and sigh with infatuation! Enjoy!
Praposal -- kiohai, 08:12:35 11/07/09 Sat
HEY EVERYONE
Have you ever wondered how one of comicalities character would react if he met one of your characters? What if all the main characters in all the stories done by all the shackers here who have posted in the library where to be plucked from where they are and put into a area together. Well I had the thought what if we did this. Now please hear this out because there will have to be rules since we don't one persons werewolf or vampire nomming on someone else’s human for a snack. I will offer Kio up from my story up. Also I was hoping we can do this by chapter telling it from each person’s view. The only problem is if we are gonna do an order or how ever we end up setting it up and where it goes be it a simple test to see what’ll happen cause some omnipotent being is bored or something. Anyway email me at kamspark1@yahoo.com and email each other and meet me in the chat so we can set up plot lines and such. This will be fun if people join in and help. Nothing is mandatory and everything is ok as long as you have the persons consent of what you are doing to or with. ALSO the character you submit may be good or bad or the poor normal person who was just unlucky. So all we need is a name and people.
Speak Week November -- echo23, 23:03:01 11/06/09 Fri
SPEAK WEEK DAY 6
**Checks calendar, checks previous posts, checks today's title** Ok, Day 6, got it right this time *phew*
The beauty of the internet is that it has allowed people from all across the world to connect in new and meaningful ways. Thanks to the world wide web, it’s easy for a guy in Massachusetts to make friends in New York, Pennsylvania, Ohio, California, Texas, Canada, Bahrain (hi Pedro!), the Philippines, the UK, New Zealand, Australia…[forty minutes later]… and Portugal! *phew* my fingers are cramping. Anyway… the great thing about this is that it connects us with great new friends we could never otherwise have met! On the downside, however, most of these people you’ll never meet in real life, and many will be unable to see each other in real life on a consistent basis. For relationships developing past friendship, this is an especially big problem.
My love affair with the Written Word -- Midnight (Enamored), 13:39:14 11/06/09 Fri God, I love books. People always say to me "Why do you buy books when they're so expensive", and I just tell them "Because they're worth it". A book is an amazing work of art that just captivates you with every word. Books contain entire worlds, mystical and magical places. Places far away, where anything is possible, you can see these whole new worlds and everything they have to offer without even leaving the room.
Walking into a bookstore, there is so much to choose from, magic, mystery, sci-fi, murder, love and drama. Beautiful, in every sense of the word, it's like love at first sight. As you slide your fingers across the title of the book and you speak it's name for the very first time, all the while it whispers yours, beckoning you to open it and lose yourself within it. Surrounded by love. The love of a bookstore, the love of books themselves.
Nobody will ever love you like a book, it's there with this incomparable unconditional love. Books welcome you with open arms, they take you away from your world and into theirs. Your problems no longer exist, school, family, friends and your life ceases within the covers of a book. It is within those covers you're merely a spirit, a faded being, who is solely there to watch the story unravel.
More stories than you can imagine, more characters than you could believe and ideas beyond comprehension. And a story just isn't within the covers of a book, who says a story has to end just because you closed the book? The world is there. Explore it! Bring yourself into it, make your own stories, think of all "What ifs" and redo the story however you please.
People tell you it's the readers who make a book what it is, but I tell you isn't. Authors show you their worlds and it you as the reader who should be grateful for the gift, the perfect gifts. You don't make the book, the book makes you.
It's so very true, on my saddest days, when I don't think I could go on, I close my shades, pour a drink, lay down upon my bed, and embrace the covers of a book. When I return from that world, where there is great powerful evil, I realize my problems aren't so big.
They give me confidence, they give me hope. Love conquers all, Good shall always vanquish Evil. Reiterated over and over again by the greatest of Novels. They make you laugh, they make you cry, they make you smile, they fill you with empathy and sympathy.
A book is an investment, an investment that you will always hold within you. Why spend $60 going to a theme park? When you can buy this amazing gift to yourself that just reverberates within your own soul. There are no long lines in a book, a book doesn't last a few minutes, there isn't any closing or opening times. It always there, ready, no maintenance needed. Loving you all the way, you can love it over and over again. You can love as many books as you want, they won't get jealous, so long you don't forget them.
My books are my greatest treasure, I awake every morn, getting ready for the day that has yet to come. As I leave my room, I look at my many books and I smile
I wish I could find a guy who'd treat me as well as a book does.
AWESOME ALEX!!!! ::Amazed:: -- Comicality, 02:36:48 11/06/09 Fri
Not *YOU*, Anubis! The OTHER Alex!!!
I have to admit to dancing on pins and needles the last few weeks for this new video!!! Not knowing what to expect at ALL! But 'Alexthemagix' has totally taken me off guard and made it even better than I thought it would be! Sighhhhh....those clever English boys are so dreamy!
Anyway, Alexthemagix's big spooky Halloween treat...
...Is now up and ready for you! And it's not just a VIDEO....but a GAME!!! Very creepy too! I likes! So check it out! And be sure to tell Alex he's awesome and subscribe to his YouTube channel! Enjoy!
::Waves Hello From The Shack::
Ps- Sorry that I always miss you in the chat, Alex! Grrr! But one day we'll cross paths! Hehehe, until then, you keep entertaining your audience, and I'll keep entertaining mine, and when the planets are in the right alignment, you and me will get the chance chit chat more! :P
Speak Week November -- echo23 (TITLE FAIL), 23:17:59 11/05/09 Thu
ahem... lets try this again...
SPEAK WEEK DAY 5
Now that we've discusses online friendships in a bit more detail--especially thanks to Alex's awesome response--lets delve more deeply into the world of online dating. You’ve visited the sites. You’ve met the guy (or girl!). You’ve arranged the meet. But are you ready to take the next step?
Speak Week November -- SWGuestHost (), 22:53:42 11/04/09 Wed
SPEAK WEEK DAY 4
My sister had a friend named Nicole. One day Nicole was surfing Myspace and she got a friend request from a guy named Ian. Now Ian was a cute kid, only had a few pictures on his Myspace, but he lived in Florida or something. So Nicole and Ian started to chat daily, and it moved to texting, but never past that (He couldn't talk on the phone because of "doctor's orders"). Soon Nicole and Ian started referring to each other as boyfriend and girl despite the differences. It was a pretty relaxed relationship until Nicole got a text message from Ian's “sister”. They text messaged talked about how Ian had a heart condition and had died that night. So, continuing on with our journey of long distance relationships...
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Diary Entry: Good Morning -- Midnight (Hot...(tempreture wise)), 16:27:13 11/04/09 Wed
Good Morning. Ahhh, It's Thursday today, love today, it's like a bludge day, but I'm not going to school today, oh noooo, because stupid Mr principal is like "OI! You will get a haircut, and until then you will not come to school. I'm going to ring your mother now, I will say it in Gaelic if I have to."
Psshuh!!
Wow, November 5th already, only 3 weeks of school before Summer Vacation, But god it is hot =[ Yesterday it was 35 ish? and like 80% humidity, and it's still Spring :|
Pretty sure, I'm going to become aquatic during the summer, this is like my first summer here in like 3 years. God help me.
We get our senior jerseys next year! Last year of high school (finally!) My Jersey is a small :|, I wish I would grow more >.>" Than maybe people wouldn't call me "Leprechaun", how tall am I? I might go check..
I am 5'4 =] I have grown. You know whats sad! I was like the awkward tall guy when I was 11, cause I started puberty early, now everyone is like "BOOM!".
Ooo, I hear my mum yelling and cursing at my brothers for not waking up. She never gets angry in English, that's odd. Speaking of English....I hate English (The Language), pretty sure I'm going to move back to Ireland, and find a village where nobody speaks English :P
But, I do like English (The Class), we're studying the Crucible, it's about the Salem Witch Trials, lol. We were learning about McCarthyism? and how it was like the Witch Trials...Seriously? It's been like 400 years, will you Americans ever learn?...(cough-doubt it-cough)
for the English Assignment, We have to do a Monologue ^-^ I'm doing Hale, Megan is like "Pretty sure, Hale was not Irish" >.>"
My neighbours are at the door ^_^ They're Americans, from Boston I think. They've still got their Holloween Decorations up :S
Well, it's 8:25, and I have to book an appointment for a hair-cut, anddd I might do some assignments.
Speak Week November -- echo23 (:D), 22:57:55 11/03/09 Tue
SPEAK WEEK DAY 3
I walk into a record store in the middle of Chicago, C on my hand. I’m here looking for new music, and maybe checking out the eye-candy listening to the emo tunes in the corner. Suddenly, an attractive man with the store’s uniform on spots me from across the store. The uniform? Cute. The eyes? **Gorgeous** As I walk up to pay for my purchases, he winks at me and tells me they’re on the house. I stop. And gape. Does this mean what I think it means? That’s right. I’ve just met my hero.
What really is the point of a stupid staff away day!! -- Dom, 06:09:14 11/03/09 Tue
Our illustrious leader.. ergo my boss, thinks it will be useful to have a staff away day where we have to
a) we each have to come up with a new name for the company... which i cant... as i think nothing wrong with old one and
b) we have to each give a 5 min presentation on what we do, what bit of it we enjoy the most and what our biggest achievement has been.
er well i can sum what i do up in one sentence don't like or hate my job.. its just a job and nothing id consider an achievement.....
GUESS WHAT! -- kiohai almos valdin (pondering), 02:30:18 11/03/09 Tue
I'm actually back from my break i found new music played a few new games my depressive episode quit being an ass for the most part. Also i found my theme recently thanks to Ashido tetrisu aka Zarla who i honestly don't know if any of you would know her and her art at all.
Anyway I'm still gonna lurk i find doing things like this is less stressful for me cause frankly I don't like being with people but i don't like being without as said.
Anyway expect another chapter in mot and as i type this i actually want to say this.
OMFGIBH its actually reached chapter four finnally hopefully it hasn't changed to much for those that skipped the first three in the sense they just thought that the first three chapters will be the same. Anyway ill post the songs lyrics than actual link to where you can download and listen to it.
It's 3 AM, and I'm drifting
Staring at an illuminous screen, I'm wandering . . .
What am I doing and why am I here?
It's times like these when my future isn't clear
And that place between when your asleep and awake
And time that you see is just so hard to take *
And the sleepless wide world it all falls apart *
And how in the world did I get this far?
But then I dream
That I am who I wanna be
That I'm successful, I am free
Life's no longer a mystery
I'm a hero on the big screen
A romantic, hopelessly
I'm a soldier, a pioneer
There is no pain
I have no fear
Dreaming while I wake
I am so free
As I dream my fate
It makes me believe
I'm a poet, a Renaissance man
I'm a lone wolf with a battle plan
I'm never alone when I'm with friends
I can look into my own eyes again
I can throw everything to the wind
Nor have any worries at all
Cause when I dream, I fly so high
I know I can never fall
No worries (No fears)
No nightmares (No tears)
( x7 )
But then I dream
That I am who I wanna be
That I'm successful, I am free
Life's no longer a mystery
I'm a hero on the big screen
A romantic, hopelessly
I'm a soldier, a pioneer
There is no pain
I have no fear http://ocrmirror.iiens.net/files/music/remixes/Shenmue_DreamingWhileIWake_OC_ReMix.mp3
copy past the link you lazy people or go to oc remix and look up dreaming while i wake ...BLAH
so yeah im here lurking in the back arranging everything and biting my toungue for all the more active actors :P
Anyway have fun and such from your current insane spaz that is truly in a legue of his own (Any objections or comments to this sentence right here will get you on my list of people to ignore and/or find and torture/ other things may or may not be fun.)
SO ...Blah
Kiohai almos valdin the vampwolf of everything that doesnt make sense.
Speak Week November -- Blake and Echo69, 22:55:33 11/02/09 Mon
SPEAK WEEK DAY TWO
Very few of you mentioned Comicality's Shack when talking about places you go to meet people online. *WHAP* Shame on all of you who forgot about us!
When enterting a "cyber" relationship the question of when to meet always arises. Some couples wait six months, a year, or maybe even a couple weeks. Some never get to the actual meeting part. We have all gotten 'the talk'. Don't talk to strangers online, don't meet anyone from the world wide web, and if you do bring a friend (and pepper spray), or meet in a crowded, public place.
I've got an mail from Chris Fallen that I can sent the letter to you.
It seems that he start sending the letter in september to Canada, so when it arrives here in The Netherlands I dont know.
However,I can send it to you if you want to give me your address.
You can find my mailaddress behind my name. Just doubleclick
Diary Entry: Boo! -- Midnight (Bored), 08:49:40 11/02/09 Mon
Haigh =] Well, I wasn't going to make a post, because I was told I was rambling :|
Holloween! Was awesome, I was a vampire, I had these amazing fangs.
Hannah and I went through a bottle and a half of Vodka =] so basically, a litre and a half.
We combined it with V Energy Drink, and called it VV. =]
It was awesome, pfft, sally and megan are such light weights, two drinks and they were already "drunk".
MY cousin is having her baby girl on Thursday, Aislinn Aoife Mac Diarmada. =]
Oh and before anyone starts reading that as Az-lin, it's actually pronouced "OSH-leeng", and it's Irish for "Dream-Vision", that weird pronouciation is just an English Bastardisation. lolol
I hope she isn't too long in labour, her last baby, she was in labour for 16 hours. (God I praise women for that), I couldn't handle pushing a bowling ball through a pin.
Oh and in other news, I have Windows 7 :), I love it, it's alot faster than vista and my comp is handling it better.
So anyway, back to holloween, me and Hannah got totally wasted, omg! there is a nasty video on facebook of us, on some random guys facebook, and it's labeled as "Irish dude and English chick wasted".
Have we established I'm Irish? anyway, yeah, Hannah is English ^_^ She just movedd here from "Bedfordshire", love her "Cockney accent", she reminds me of catherine tate.
School is finishing in a few weeks, I'm so relieved :( 9 golden weeks of doing nothing, the highlights of my holidays will include:
My other cousin giving birth to her beautiful boy
Me getting a new car =]
Christmas
My Aunty coming for a visit.
oh, that reminds me of a funny story (you have to imagine me and my aunt with our Irish accents, and the check-out girl with her Aussie accent)
We were in Woolworths (supermarket), and we were at the check-out, and my aunty is buying a few things for dinner, and the girl holds up a pepper and says "You can buy four capsicums for the price of 1" and my aunty goes "Eh? What do you be calling that?" (My aunty lives in like Rural Ireland), and the girl goes "It's a capsicum" and my goes "Oh 'tis it now? and how much for onions?" while holding up an apple, Lolol, and the girl says "Wow, you call that an onion? What do you call the vegetables that make yu cry?" and my aunty replies with "Aye, ye see, that's a pickle now"
Lololol, my aunty takes the mc out of everyone when she visits.
It's a full moon tonight =] Not sure if it's a full moon elsewhere, but here it is, and it's shining in my room, I might go for a Midnight Walk, brb.
Okay, back, ahhh, it's nice and cool outside, I hate street lights, there are sooo many streets lights in this god damn country, and they're turned on like 24/7. I had to walk through the park, just to get away from them all.
I love the moon <33 In Ireland we have a saying "Dá fhaid é an lá, tagann an oíche" However long the day, the night will come.
Night is so beautiful, even the word itself evokes a strong sentiment of elusive calamity and mystique. While, the day and sun are hot, fast, harsh and unforgiving, the night and moon are cool, slow, gentle, soft and forgiving. It welcomes you with a cool embrace, and you can just revel in Oíche Ghealaí (A Moonlit Night).
I should really get back to that assignment, it's a pestering pixie. Naww, my cat wants to cuddle.
WDotW Pics For 11/2 -- Comicality, 06:42:53 11/02/09 Mon
I would love to see them make music here in the states too, but for now we'll have to settle for watching them from a distance! You can check out their official website at http://www.xink.be/home/ for more info and music!
And also for more pictures! (Which, might I add...I only saw a few pics on the site, but in ONE of them, one of the boys was wearing a snug red shirt that said...quite clearly...
Com, and anyone else who might be vaguely interested.... im still around... just been Mahoosivley busy... plus I er.. managed to blow up my new laptop so had to get another new one..... soooo not looking forward to that credit card bill... anyway toodles all! -- Dom, 04:12:32 11/02/09 Mon
And more recently, the internet is how more people meet friends, lovers, and even employees.
Over the next week, we will be exploring the world of online relationships of every form. The transition from screen name to real life can be a challenge: when is the right time? Is there a right time? And how can a purely textual relationship ever smoothly transition into real life?
I neeeddddd a Shack Artist =P -- Meagzi, 02:20:42 10/31/09 Sat
Is there anyone on here in the entire multicultural interwebs that would like to help me design a decent Comicality tattoo for my inner wrist?
Coz if i do it.....well it'll look AWFUL!
Let me know yeah?
Hugs and Kisses! XD
xxxx
Com I love and hate chicago -- moonwolf, 22:36:45 10/30/09 Fri
Now Chicago is all nice and cute... from the big ass McDo you suggested I go to... Willis tower, ESPN zone arcade (yummy people there )
BUT...
I hate chicago now...
the Chicago Blackhawks have just beaten MY Montreal Canadiens..
Now hockey is our unofficial official sport.. Lacrosse is by the way. (don't ask how that can be, I have no clue go on wiki and check).
Our hockey team is the best and I won't let indians beat us LOL
This is war Comsie... !!! Just you wait we'll beat your team next year when we meet them :P
(ok I'll admit I don't know if you even check hockey.)
What's happening about the interview with someone with 50 question for your about me section... who's the lucky journalist?
Did you like the pic I sent you btw ?
When's the next new kid... and the next class by himself and the next GFD.. and the next billy chase... and the next Jesse-101 :P ok I'll stop for now and go back into lurker mode
good to see things are back to normal in the mad house
A question for the shack... -- Anubis, 16:33:52 10/30/09 Fri
Ok, so my mom and I were having a discussion this evening about sexuality and exploration when you are younger and it raised a point that I never really thought of.
Do girls "explore" as much as guys?
We always hear about how straight boys will "experiment" with other guys when they are younger and still end up straight afterwards. After experimentation they realize that they aren't really attracted to other guys and go on to be heterosexual as adults. I've never heard the same thing with girls. I mean obviously if they are bi or lesbians then they will have sexual interactions with other girls. Do straight girls go through similar experiences as straight boys?
I know that not all straight boys do that and I don't expect all straight girls would do that. But do you think the numbers that do are about the same as boys? Less? Or even more so than their curious boy counterparts?
Diary Entry: Feeling better -- Midnight (Feeling better), 12:48:53 10/29/09 Thu
Haigh =] Cén chaoi a bhfuil tú? Tá mé ar do shuaimhneas anois. =] Ahhh..I'm feeling better today, turns out that when Mark says best boyfriend, he just means "bestfriend". Well, Im happy he's not with someone? Does that make me a bad person? Hmm... I wanna talk to him, i haven't spoken to him in 3 years, you know what's funny? In May at my friend bday party, I was literally standing right next to him, and couldn't say a thing, what's even funnier...stupider... is that he lives 3 hours down. Yes very pathetic indeed! Jesss is not helping, she use to be my inside man, but now she moved to icky Melbourne, and doesn't stay in touch with anyone in Bris, sooo it's annoying. Melbourne is soo bad for her, god, when i go down their in december I might just shoot everyone. Well, she had this childhood best friend, Maddy...Madeline. Anyway, i met her when I was in melb in July, she seemed awesome. Well, turns out she had a sleepover with jess and her boyfriend...jess went to get some food...and she snogged her boyfriend!! grr, seriously? who the fuck does that to their "best friend", oh and this boyfriend is more of an ass then she is...he's suicidal! and sens jess messages saying he's gonna kill hismelf and it's her fault!! seirously! who does that to their girlfriend?? If he don't kill himself, i will...anyway back to maddie, maddie has a best guy friend. Sam, sam is gay, and ultra adorableee, sam had a boyfriend...who on the night after snogging jess's boyfriend, she snogged Sam's boyfriend!!...And he broke up with sam, and won't tell him!
God, wtf? such a horrible day ish, getting texts from Jess about Ben and his suicidal ness..and Sam wondering what HE did wrong? mmmm..Who thinks I should tell Sam? wait, you know what's so horrible, thy're still friends with Maddie.
She is officially, the first person i'll murder when I get to Melbourne, but jess is coming here for the holidays, so that'll be nice....
Hmm.....Okay, so besides problems with friends, i have problems at school, well, actually I found out these problems are kind of "hollow". Cause of my medical condition, I have a lot of days off, my medication is effected by my mental state...so happy days I can go, well yeah.
Holloween? Halloween? No idea how it's spelt, saturday =], Holloween partyy...pretty sure, It's going to be me and a bottle of vodka, forgetting my problemsss....ah what a nice weekend =]
Hmmm...it's 3:27am, thank god I have a medical condition that makes me Vampire..LOL, yes I am Lame. but, Im getting better, you know I always wondered why my eyes changed colour but my mother has emerald green eyes..turns out it's my illnesss, and and! My eyes are turning green again, im so happy, well they were always green, but now their going like bright emerald greeen, all I need now is a facelift, and I might have somehting going for me.
Mark always loved my eyes, you know whats weird? To everyone else, Mark is so-so? in the looks department, wow? I must be blind, because seriously, he is the hottest guy I know, those grey-blue eyes, smooth skin, blondest of blonde hair, I saw him take out the bin once, and he as like the hottest chest, six pac and all. When i think of hot guys, I think of him, nobody can beee hotter than him.
Ahhhh.....good memories, mmmm...bad memories. ow, I just coughed and my hip cracked. I hear this noise, I thik there is a mouse in my room. No wait, it's the cat, OOOOO that minds me, my kittys' name is Taryn, I actually thought he came before GFD, but wow, I didn't realise how old GFD was, my cat is only 5 years old. I love that name Taryn, I have a friend in Ireland, Taryn. there is a guy at my school with that name, but he pronouces it differently, I actually always thought Taryn was a celtic name, but it's alot more common as a boys name in Ireland, but here in Australia, it's a girls name. I wonder how the americans pronouce it? Hmm..right now im putting on fake american accents trying to pronouce Taryn differently..im such a weird one.
Yay, christmas is coming up =] Im so happy, there is like christmas decorations, up and down main street, and in the store. My cousin lives in Chicago, and he says his area is very PC? No idea what that meant, I just smiled, he says you won't find christmas tree's and nativity scenes in his area. eww how depressing. There is this beautiful tree in the shopping center, i like it <333
Okay, well I should get some sleeep, good night, school in like 3 hours.
COMICALITY IS ON MY BOOBS! -- Meagzi, 02:40:22 10/28/09 Wed
Well...actually he's on my back...but savage moon is on my boobs...as i have finished making my design singlets and savage moon is out in public! Muahahaha :D I shall upload photos later...
Back to design hibernation till friday...SO MUCH TO DO!
Such is the life of a year 12 four days before exams and 2 days before two MAJOR design projects are due! *freaks and runs away*
Love ya bitches! :D
Hurray! -- Sajhak, 22:52:06 10/27/09 Tue
Due to Kiwi's generosity the Billy's Birthday Presents is fixed!
http://entirelyrandom.net/sajhak/
Blessed are those Kiwi boys, for they shall be dancing naked in the Shack of Comicality.
Diary entry? -- Midnight (Void?), 10:18:00 10/27/09 Tue
Haigh? Cén chaoi a bhfuil sibh? (Just abit of Irish for youse). I don't know why I'm here, honestly. I just needed somewhere to get all this emotion out, where I know someone was listening, but I wouldn't get a face-to-face response.
*sigh*, Where do i start? Not like anyone really cares, because I'm predicting this post is going to be very long. On the brighter side of life, my mother has stopped drinking, Very happy about that, I think I'll be able to fix my door without her breaking it down in a drunke rampage, but she's stopping drinking because she has Diabetes, and can't feel her foot? no idea what that is about, seriously. On the lesser side, there is this ass at work who I swear to god, is gay-in-denial. His name is Hayden (cutest boy, biggest cunt), he is a bully -.- I don't know why horrible comments and mean words hurt so much? Why should something someone you don't care about or even like have such a power over you? Well, the thing is Hayden has this gay friend, cute little guy, who treats him like a god >.>', and the rumour is that they're like "sex-buddies" to put it light, the rumours came to light recently when apparantly, so I've been told, They were snogging in the bathroom at school. Seriously, hate him, at work tonight he was being a huge cunt, and my friend Tiarna had to open her mouth, and they got into an arguement, wasn't pretty..
Welllll, enough about him, sick of thinking about someone so hot being such an ass (annoyed look)
School = Horrible, just horrible. Well not horrible, good? but horrible at the same time. Stupid illness >.>', medicine is connected to my "emotional state", and since it's not working, doctor thinks I'm depressed, well he wouldn't be wrong, to say the least. Thinks I should see a councilor...not going to happen. do I look crazy to you?
But...what's really doing my head in is Mark...Wait, none of you know Mark. Mark was my best friend for many years, in grade 7 I kind of realised the whole "guys are hot" thing, and in grade 8, my friend (the girl who defended me tonight) blabbed to everyone, and Mark that I liked him.
Wellll, to me it was living hell for ages, well, not hell, but not heaven.
ANYWAY, Mark slept over (his idea), and he asked questions like, if i had kissed a boy, and why i liked guys. To cut a long story short, we actually kissed, and cuddle.....*sigh* even three years later the memory is crystal clear in my memory, I don't ever remember thinking of him as my "Boyfriend", but if he wasn't, than he was my amazing best friend, who waited for me at the bus stop, always wanted to hear every detail of my day, oh and the guy who kissed and cuddled me in secret. =/
Than...things turned horrible, this guy moved into my street, and I was the "faggot" and MArk was his new best friend, i actually remember like a week after we met, he was broadcasting mark as his best friend. =/
he did all these horrible things, he would invite everyone over, and say that having "me" was one two many. But MArk always came out with me, i think Jake* (name changed) was actually driving him closer to me. then...things got worse, when he "turned" on his "best friend" calling Mark the faggot, and we were boyfriends (I didn't mind tht), hmm...Mark never denied tht, I loved tht ^-^
But Jacob's parents and marks paretns were good friends, and soon he was kind of forced to be friends with him. Mark's parents and mine don't really get along? it's more of a common curtesy, My parents are Irish his parents are English...kind of had to be like tht.
things got worse =/, i got paranoid, mark got distant.
PRetty sure it was that horrible day in November tht we just had this huge fight, and it's never been the same, we talked, but jacob kept him from me.
And you know, over the years, I never stopped loving him, when I thought of the perfect guy it was him. My parents were happy we went friends, I just suffered, and I stilll do, I dream about him, i dream about hugging him, and for weird reason I dreamt about him being in a play? and getting a major part and hugging me (he doesn't like drama)
Well, today my heart really broke, for good. I got a text during economic's class, and it was a link to his myspace, and I find this huge "coming out" blog, i was kind of happy, but suddenly he started talking about this "amazing person" and it ended with him saying he had a boyfriend.
I've never been so hurt :( so cut, god I read it, and I walked out of class and cried in the bathroom. I came home and cried, and right now I'm crying, I can't even get to sleep. I went to the bathroom to freshen up, and I have never looked so ugly, and Im not a good-looking to begin with. and right now, I feel like everything is my fault...I wasn't a good friend, I wasn't what he wanted me to be, and I'm feeling so suicidal right now, so worthless, so empty, so void of just anything. And even talking to my best friend, all i'm being told is to get over it and smile.
Working out a solution... -- Comicality, 13:40:49 10/26/09 Mon
Thankfully, things seem to be calming down a bit where hopefully we can all talk and work things out. I wanna thank everyone for their emails. Some very fair and level headed suggestions were made by you all, and I appreciate the feedback.
Also, huge thanks to everyone who helped to make peace, and keep things light hearted. I must admit...I don't care HOW stressed I am, a picture of a camel in dominatrix gear and a demonic Billy Chase with a severed 'Stevie' head on the table is guaranteed to make me smile every time. :) So thanks. I needed that. We all did.
More on that stuff down below. But the most important thing is that we just keep moving forward and get things back on track. Ok?
Rainy day today... -- Comicality, 18:20:15 10/23/09 Fri
Always put me in a 'hugs and cuddles' mood when it's raining outside. Something about is so romantic, you know? I love it.
Anyway, I was talking to my sweetheart the other day, and we were thinking...if there was ONE song (not an album, just a song) that you could keep with you the rest of your life, what would it be and why?
Just a random question. It made me curious. Now if you don't mind, I'm gonna send a certain someone a kiss and a cookie! :P
echo23, 23:03:01 11/06/09 Fri 
