VoyForums
[ Show ]
Support VoyForums
[ Shrink ]
VoyForums Announcement: Programming and providing support for this service has been a labor of love since 1997. We are one of the few services online who values our users' privacy, and have never sold your information. We have even fought hard to defend your privacy in legal cases; however, we've done it with almost no financial support -- paying out of pocket to continue providing the service. Due to the issues imposed on us by advertisers, we also stopped hosting most ads on the forums many years ago. We hope you appreciate our efforts.

Show your support by donating any amount. (Note: We are still technically a for-profit company, so your contribution is not tax-deductible.) PayPal Acct: Feedback:

Donate to VoyForums (PayPal):

[ Login ] [ Contact Forum Admin ] [ Main index ] [ Post a new message ] [ Search | Check update time | Archives: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, [10] ]

[ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

Date Posted: 02:57:42 02/22/04 Sun
Author: Matteo
Subject: Re: Yup.
In reply to: CCS 's message, "Re: Yup." on 01:44:42 02/22/04 Sun

That is not a very good response. Wow, so I looked for ways to compensate for my lack of studying. Big deal. It wasn't cheating, though I admit I was looking to cheat - I was hoping to find sample test questions, or the test it'self. This has not been my usual character for most of my life. I used to feel very guilty about any kind of cheating or dishonesty. But I have been trying to change myself over the years, often blindly hacking away with a machetee, instead of using a fine surgical instrument, to try to achieve change. The result isn't always correct, nor pretty. People make mistakes and learn from them. I recall Christina Aguilara singing something like "my mistakes are beautiful", and that's an intersting concept to me.

I actually do know why people don't respond to my posts. And since you don't know, or can't say it, I will say it; I often come across as angry, antagonistic, unstable, and with having serious issues. Anti-social is probably another. Trying to entice people to respond is another, and people can sense it, and so they resist responding. Trying to rile things up, hostility, you name it. Which is all true, in my opinion. I have problems, I have issues, I admit it. I don't care to hide it or deny it anymore. And of course, from basic life experience, everyone knows that most people would rather not deal with people who are angry, unstable, antagonistic, having serious issues, hostile, etc, due to fear or discomfort.
And because of my issues, I choose not to attempt to really make friends, but to keep my distance. This, I believe, is something people get a sense of too.

What else. Well, I don't blame people for not posting when I am making them feel uncomfortable. But in another sense, I dislike when people are afraid of me, and are afraid to deal with serious issues. It's like, in our society, you have to go see a therapist or find a real close, trusted friend or family member to talk about what's ailing you on the inside. People get nervous talking about things that I consider way to taboo in our society.
I mean, I found this to be true at web community's for depression. Most want to stick to talking about "meds" and superficial things, but when someone talks about more serious issues, people stop posting. They get scared, or would rather simply say "you really need to get help", Why? Once again, because they don't want to discuss serious issues that make them feel uncomfortable. Or they might get angry at a person for feeling a certain way.

I also find people try to keep themselves emotionally quiet and are afraid to express what they are feeling, because of our stupid, ignorant, conforming society. I, being irked that people aren't as open and willing to discuss serious issues as I am, try to invoke impassioned responses, of which I rarely ever get here, especially not right now. That is one of the reasons why I was always antagonistic, rude and harsh; I simply wanted an impassioned response. The only person who ever really fought back was Mario. I mean, I had some people thank me for ripping their sketch to pieces! It's practically worse when people just took my insults without saying a word. And insults they were. Hell, Jen, thank you for being the only one here with the balls to stand up to my insults of the writers here! That is what I wanted, even though I felt you really, really, really held back and could have done a better job. I try to pull people into my game, but they resist (by referring to it as a game does not mean I am playing games, just a figure of speach), but sometimes I succeed at invoking a response.

I also have my own feelings about what kind of people you all are. Some of you are very cautious, others, afraid to be put in a position to succeed, because you fear you aren't good enough. Basically, what I'm trying to get across by what I just said is we cannot hide who we really are from perceptive people. That is what I feared, is that everyone could sense I had issues. Oh well, it's true.

CCS, I thought you were an intellectual. Say something that will challenge me, please.

P.S. I am proud of not having a highschool diploma. It is one of the most over-rated things. The biggest stoners, the laziest kids, the least intelligent; they all get their diploma just for showing up. And what is taught is not of any significant importance to living life. And one of the biggest myths is that schooling equals intelligence. I'd rather be an independant thinker than go through a system, trained to think alike.

[ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

Replies:

Post a message:
This forum requires an account to post.
[ Create Account ]
[ Login ]
[ Contact Forum Admin ]

Forum timezone: GMT-6
VF Version: 3.00b, ConfDB:
Before posting please read our privacy policy.
VoyForums(tm) is a Free Service from Voyager Info-Systems.
Copyright © 1998-2019 Voyager Info-Systems. All Rights Reserved.